Everyone’s biggest problem is that they fall in love with words rather than actions.
There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise.
—Emery Allen  (via perrfectly)
I am so afraid of disappointing the people I love, I often forget that I am someone I love too. And I need kindness just as much as I believe the people I love do.

Baby I’m done with these games
This shits gotten out of hand
It’s insane.
To lay my hand on a lover
These bruises aren’t a joke
The pain I feel Is all too real
But in the moments I feel nothing.
Why is this love so intoxicating
I’m basically creating my own disaster
I’m a master at that
Letting people use me
Abuse me
And I guess bruise me,
From my head,
Down to my toes.
I’m used to the abuse
I grew up with it
Shit boys only do it cause they like you right?
It’s been so long
Since I took
That blade to my skin again
I needed to feel something again!
If only I had a friend I could fucking turn to!
I yearn to love you.
To trust you.
I can’t,
I won’t,
And I don’t.
I’m left here to wonder
How much more of this abuse can I take?
Mistake after mistake
My life was a fucking mistake
Shit I’m a disgrace to my whole damn family.
I’m on the brink of insanity!
My sister didn’t deserve to see that
God damnit I know better than that!
How the fuck can I be an example
When I let her witness that?

I want a dude that still kiss me when he mad